Did you really think I was going to post the title in the header? If I did that then you wouldn’t be reading this and you wouldn’t know why the most personal poem in the book is the one I consider the most personal.
I want to say before revealing the poem, The Paradox Complex contains a lot of personal poems. Many of them relate to a certain situation in my life or something I felt was a good fit to this book (There are several written that didn’t fit the theme of this book).
Now, the part you’ve been waiting for. The most personal poem in The Paradox Complex is “Audience of One”. I know many will be surprised, especially given no one guessed this poem when I was asked what poem in the book is the most personal poem but this is also me explaining why it is my most personal.
Ever since people started noticing my writing and paying money to read my books, I have always done my best to make sure I write something I know will sell. As I mentioned in prior blog posts, this book was not my original follow-up to either Three Crowns or META- (Complete) (I was already working on my novel and I’ve been writing a different poetry book for a while now). This book began as a response to people who were upset with META- (Complete) telling me there were little to no light moments in the book. When I was writing the book, I had went through a break-up, I was accused of plagiarism on another book, and I was dealing with people who I thought were close to me that were unsupportive of my work and pursuit of writing. I can’t write happy stuff when I’m not in a good place in my life.
Anyway, I started writing lighter poems just to prove I could indeed write stuff with little to no darkness. However, I began to ask myself “Am I writing these poems for me or am I just writing them to make money off of some naysayers?” I realized I was indeed writing these poems for ME. Don’t get me wrong, everyone buying and loving The Paradox Complex has been a blessing but my most well received poems have been the ones that have been personal.
“Audience of One” is about someone ready to perform, only to see one face in the crowd. The person then realizes it may have been one person but it was the person who matters. I wrote this poem as a reminder to myself, I am writing for me. The stories in this book are my stories, I want to share them with the world but what good is giving/selling a book to someone if I’m unhappy with what is being released. This poem was written for me to remind myself I need to write for me first, I’ve written stuff that was not authentic and many took notice immediately. This is why I consider this poem to be my most personal poem in the book.
I know many are likely surprised but as I said earlier, this book contains several personal poems. But this is the one I consider the most personal.
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